This morning as I wake I am thankful for the time I was in my bed. I got more sleep then I have been getting since last week. It wasn’t without interruptions but it was nice to not get up and have to run about the house for the various reasons I find doing for my family in the night.
I also woke up to the tiny whimpers of my Mr. Ancient, aka BJ. When I went to bed I was concerned he might not wake up this morning. He is a couple months from 17 years old and was not feeling good last night. I was concerned he wouldn’t wake up this morning, but I can hear him in his kennel. A good sound it makes.
Now to get my day started as both my husband and daughter have doctor appointments and will be going different directions this morning. I am so torn because with them both sick at the same time I’m only able to do so much. My wonderful in laws are coming over to take their son to his doctor appointment (this one is unrelated to his surgery but the VA would not allow him to reschedule this one unless he was physically in the hospital). Then I am taking my daughter to her ENT appointment as hers is an appointment that is related to her surgery.
I will be relieved to have both of these appointments done and come back home again. Exhaustion is a difficult battle to get through, but determination helps me to push through it. It will all be good. We will get through this experience and in the end if my husband and daughter can redeem their lives again then I would do this all over again.
I am hoping later to be able to sit down and write something that is a “real” post. Until then friend. I hope you have a good day.
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Published by Heidi Benson
I am a wife, mom, and daughter. I served in the United States Army, went to college, received a Batchelor's Degree in Criminology, homeschooled my daughter every year from start to finish, and now I am currently a daycare teacher's aide (soon to be a two-year-old teacher coming this fall).
I married my husband when he was in the United States Army so I have the unique knowledge of what it is like to be on both sides of a Military uniform.
While we were stationed in Germany, my daughter, who is 24 years old now, was born and I made the difficult decision to put my career on hold to be her mom.
The past 20 years have been wrought with many struggles but as a result of those struggles, this blog was created.
As the years passed and the struggle kept coming, I would say, "I'm not sure why we have to go through all of this, but if we have to then it is my desire to allow my story to serve as a means of encouragement to others so all this pain isn't for nothing."
The years passed and the struggles did not. However, I feel now is the time God wants me to share these stories of hardships with the hopes they provide encouragement to you if you are struggling in the same way. It is my prayer they will serve as a healing opportunity for you.
I want you to know you are not alone. There are others who know where you are and what you are feeling.
Cling to the hope this won't last forever and that God is standing beside you while He holds you up and dries your tears. He is showing you the way, you just need to follow Him.
Big Hugs, Heidi
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